New Mind

Ready or not here it comes. Time waits for no one but everyone waits for time.

Have you ever waited and waited for something and you know it will be so great. It comes and then it is gone and you feel like the wind has been punched clear out of you. You might find your self saying; Is that all there is.

I think this happens after Christmas. All the Hype for buying this or buying that. .All the holiday  movies. cartoons and music leading up to that special  day has us all involved and geared up for Christmas.

The day after, you are tired and you don't want to think or hear the word Christmas.

This same thing happens with weddings. The planning , you get the hall ,the church the flowers the cake the dress and the dress worn by the matron or maid of honor.

After it is done there is that relief and the feeling of great satisfaction that it all came together. Then the fatigue and never wanting ti hear the word wedding again.

Life gives us these moments to apreciate the mundane in our lives. You have the sadness and then the happiness.We are never down where someone doesn't lend us a hand..There may be  very hard down and out times but the universe doesn't leave you there. Unless you are doing nothing to help yourself.

It is just law you must keep doing all you can do and help will come to you.

This year is winding down and I wonder what is ahead. I will welcome this New Year in ,like so many others, with the drop of the ball. And deep inside I'm wondering what's in store for my life, my family and my church family.

Time marches on as we wait for it and wonder what it will bring. The only way to face what ever comes our way is just to take it One Day at a Time.

I WISH EVERYONE LOVE, PEACE AND JOY!!!!!

Magic

Did you know that we can do magic, all of us.We are extremely magical creatures. We can do what no other animal can. We can reason and choose. And because of being able to reason and choose we can choose to forgive.

To forgive is the biggest magic we have.It does not happen over night. It takes time sometimes years.

Forgiving is a process of setting yourself free from your own jail.

For me IT started with a 12 step program. Then a group for adult children from dysfunctional families and then individual counseling. Like I said it's a process.

My magical powers slowly came to me through love. People who loved me till I could love myself.    My childhood had left me with little self confidence, low self esteem ,lots of anger and little power over my own life.

I was in complete victim mode. I had to learn what I was responsible for and what I was not. I could not change my childhood and I had to know IT WAS NOT MY FAULT. It was nothing I did or said. In that case I was the victim.

I had to get out of that mode. I was dealing with adult problems in my childhood survival mode.      It was now time to take back my power.I would no longer be a puppet. I was manipulated and controlled by my parents in every way they interferenced with my life. Their biggest manipulation was fear.Al ways telling me what I could not do. They were so worried for my safety so I could not live by myself.. I was not strong enough to do anything on my own away from them. They smother my growth as a human being and just about made me helpless. This NOT LOVE.

It took alot of time before I could understand they did the best with what they had and that was not much.

A GREAT man once said ,when someone asked him how many time should I forgive, the response was seventy times seven. To me this means there are steps to forgiveness and we just keep forgiving till we one day we realize, we have forgiven. It is a process and we must work on it with a group or individual counceling.Maybe you won't need as much as I did but get help. It is the adult thing to do.

You can't imagine how good it feels to forgive. The eminence freedom, the gift of owning your own power and being the the most powerful magician in the world because you have the gift to forgive and magically bring your self PEACE..

Elephant in the House

If you live or have lived in a home with alcholism,drugs or any dependant sickness you know about chaos. The insanity in a home like this definitly changes who you are as you grow up.

I am an adult child of two alchoholic parents. Peace was a rare special comodity. The peace after the the insanity and chaos was so precious.

I'm lying in bed asleep when I hear a loud crash. Then there was screaming, cursing and yelling two floors below. I'm statled but dare not move. I listen and hear the blows and my grandmother saying No Jackie, No Russell. This goes on for a long time at least it seems so to a seven year old girl.

Then after the confusion comes the sudden quit, that powerful quiet after a terrible storm. So precious! So relieving! Finally I fall asleep and hope no one is dead.

My brother and I live in fear. A fear so deep and so scary we dare not move at times. We lived like this all of our childhood. Fear is a terrible thing to live with day in and day out, epecially when you can do nothing about it. Never knowing what may happen at any time.

I remember one Christmas when this chaos took hold of our Christmas day. The insanity infiltrated our day, all day. When they fell asleep we were so grateful. We quietly turned on the TV and watch Scrooge. We sat their close together with an emence feeling of relief.

Quiet is just part of life which most people can have when ever they choose. My definition of quiet as a child, was the quiet you get after the storm.The peace that surpasses all understanding.

Yesterday message at church was titled"Life in the Trenches".  It was about soldiers in the trenches in WW1 during Christmas. One group was British and the other was German. Stuck in the trenches at Christmas.

On Christmas day there was a cease fire. About 2am the Britches saw lights around trees on the German side. The Germans had lit some trees on their side and started singing Oh Tanenbaum . The Britches solders sang a Christmas song and back and forth they went. One German solder yelled out " come out and talk to us. The Britches said " you come out". Eventually they both came out of their fox holes and was talking to each other. They both found out how alike they were. Both wished their was no war.

The magic of Christmas is that people become more open minded toward each other. That once a year They come out of themselves and really try to touch each others hearts. Some people say it should be like this all year round. True it should be but if we didn't have this season there would not be this amount of giving.

This season opens our hearts and gives us permission to reach out to each other. A season of giving. So thank goodness  for this season of PEACE.

Christmas

This season talks alot about peace.Peace on earth. Where? Our world is in such turmoil. Where can we find peace. Some say in God. Well I am just not that simplictic.

I believe the power lies inside us not anyone else. We have the choice of how we live. It is up to us. We make our decisions no one else. WE have that wonderful power to choose. We are not puppets on a string. We must be responsible for what we do and say.

I have learnt to ask the question, what is my motive . Is it to help or hurt. According to my answer I can bring peace or chaos to this earth. I can bring peace or chaos to the people around me. Isn't that remarkable.
 We are powerful beings .Let's use that power to the best of our ability and bring a little peace to our small part of the world.